pressure

I do not know why I am like that ??????????

Any one in  this situation have to be happy ,but me not 

May be because of stress "Iam under stress" or the way itself .I do not know

But all around me say the same thing ,as I am from another planet 

This stress made  me in bad mood and shape .I want to change that but i cant 

Many times before and till now I am trying to get out of the box
as Dail Cairany said 

some times I feel that i can handle that ,but most of time I can not
what can i do with the comfort zone 
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how can i separate between my family and other people behavior . not affect any one
to other person 
i am so tired ,under alot of pressure and in the same time i have to deal with people
in good way 
may people leave me 
pressure     

Right or not

u face that before to be so puzzled & do not know if u r right or not .when u do wrong behave and do not know how to treat it .also is that false from the beginning  or not 

when u do some thing  and after lot of  talking  ,u convert 360 grade  .After that  u also do not feel that u r right .Really I am not depressed person as some think but I change my feeling may be in a minute  . also I sometimes feel anger from someone and i do not say that even though If I were asked about that 

also when I want to tell someone  about that I asked for that one time only even though I were asked about that again because I do not feel trust in him again  anyway 

today I feel bad about a wrong  behavior I did so I decided to prologize  about that and i did but  i still feel bad about that 

now I feel so anger from myself  because of what I am doing .I do not know where I can go &talk to whom  a lot of things  runing in my mind  and i do not know where i am going 

enough for today . I have to go now 

I will complete tomorrow

what is the issue

really i do not know what is the issue 

u feel before that nothing at all .u do not know if u r happy or sad ,u love this person or not  and also the others 

really nothing at all

begin from where 

first say at home :all of them have the right to do what he want but me no no no
my two sister are marry but their husbands are travelling so they stay with us (go&come(when they were in my age  they did things  that they prevent me now to do and also the behavior
after marry a  lot  of things changed to them and theire point of view
I just have wanted to have the same right of them before marry .is it my right?? 
second say with friends:from time to time u have new friends and on the other side u lost old friends that what i have not accepted   .i want to see them and call them
from few days i feel i miss my faculty  friends so i call one of them .i were shocked "she cancel my number  and have more time to know " .the issue is that  here speach were not fell me that she also miss our days
so i called another friend who i trust in his mind ,point of view  and his hopes$willing  .i also shocked "i found him left his work to non certain aim  then went to another that is not good  ,depressed  and want to travel
last try ok i will arrange some hours to meet my friends from last job "they are near to place and time " i arranged with one and the others i  can not reach to them so cancel every thing
Third say in work: i do not know exactly what i can say but
in my first job   i have known  people who i do not love  but i have to  deal with them .Here the problem is that I have  been repeated  the person on my life  and also i   understood that late  
in  new job I can not collect all of my  point of view  about them
so waiting for completing that later

puzzled

from yesterday I feel so puzzled  .u know when y have to choose between two things  and the problem is that if u choose any of them u must lie 

for sure every thing have a double weapons edges in the same time 

the issue is that when u make compare between them ,it became so hard 

I can not sleep from yesterday  because of that and also  I feel that my mind will burn from thinking  .what ?can I do 

I feel comfortable for one of them bur it is so dangerous and so tired  and also I will lie If I choose that 

so I decided to talk to any one I can trust on to share me in opinion 

I look for that between the wisdom persons who I know .I find that some I can not talk to because I know his opinion from the first  and he will live the  role   

another  will look for their self interest 

another will say what u are seeing do without hesitation as they make me puzzled became over 

on the other hand  I can not talk to any one in my home  because they are in side and I in another side  not in the same line of our mind 

I decide to talk to my uncle  I do not know If he can understand me or not and what can I do if he not  

and also what he will make as usual  of what he do 

what is yr advice for me now